This layer of resistance is a nasty bugger. Its game is to activate a high level of discomfort in you. It can feel like pins and needles inside of you, like you can't stand to be in your own skin. Or like your skin is itchy, or your head is going to explode, or your heart. Or suddenly you're so cold, or so hot, or that you're burning up. Or it feels like the noise outside is so loud! The kids are driving you nuts! Your partner is driving you batty! It feels like you can't take it, or it's too much. It feels like anything at all would be better than this irritation.
It's a good one...very strategic at hooking you, a very captivating layer of resistance. If aggressive mind and invisible cloak don't hook you, this one just might. Irritation is an intense version that plays on the hypochondriac in all of us, plays on the impatience in all of us, plays on the stress in all of us, plays on the deep seated fear that there is something very, very wrong. It's got a good game going.
Which, like all the resistance layers, is actually an insane game. It actually creates what it proposes to help us avoid. Irritation, however uncomfortable, won't actually harm you. But its usually really effective at driving us straight into our compulsions, addictions, and distractions, which often do.
Until you catch on to it.
If you are aware that this is what is going on, and that it's only a pattern of resistance, you can dive for the source of what's initiating it. You can dive towards the physical sensation in the body, usually a dense or tender place that feels like an energetic block. Or, you can direct your awareness towards what is going on that is triggering all this resistance, all this irritation. Then the irritation is no longer fully captivating (as it's primary power is you believing it's true). This involves not only seeing the pattern at hand, but understanding that if you are aware of it, you are not it. You are the awareness of something moving in your system is all. When you really get this...then you can go see what is moving in your system to create this layer of resistance. When you get to the source you can bring some tenderness to it, and begin to unwind it.
Sometimes in a private session, I will suddenly hear:
" There is something really wrong, I think my head is going to explode."
" I am so cold, so cold, it can't be okay, something is really wrong."
"My skin and scalp are so itchy...I am so, so itchy."
"My stomach is aching, I'm going to be sick."
"Ahhhh, I can't stand it!"
And what we do is dive towards the sensations and meet it tenderly in awareness. Then check in with clarity, to see if the irritation is coming from buried pain, or if indeed you are having a heart attack, for real. It's usually very obvious. Clarity feels like a simple knowing; you just know if it's a heart attack, it's usually quite calm and sure. Fear, however, feels catchy, grabby, panicky. And that panic is usually bogus, like 99.999% of the time, but lets just say 100% because anything you ever really need to know will come via clarity, and nothing good or essential or even interesting comes from fear. For real.
So, yup, resistance sucks. Get out of it ASAP! Head straight for the source, and don't be distracted by these resistance layers. Be sure, simple and direct...go for the source of the pain, not the distractions. Or, believe resistance. Get suckered by it, act from it, and visit hell for a spell. HELL I tell you...but sadly, I don't need to, because most of us have spent quite some time there already.
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