I loved the Harry Potter stories. I especially loved the description of all those magic objects they used throughout the years. How fun to hear the descriptions of all these fantastical, magical tools. Harry was given a cloak that he could put on and become invisible, so that when he was in the room, nobody could see him. How awesome would that be?
And that is just like one of the tools our friend resistance uses to hide out.
Again, resistance comes from our primal survival system, is throughout the body, and is just part of life in these human forms. The survival system is made up of all kinds of things: part nervous system, part vigilance center in the brain, part solar plexus and root chakras, even parts of our immune system. It's just what comes with our bodies. And that survival system does a lot of nice things, and a lot of pesky things. One pesky thing is a strict order to keep you away from being aware of pain in your system...which is wacky, because it often uses another kind of pain to keep us distracted. But, it's a very primal, ancient system, and therefore can only use primal techniques.
The first primal tool this resistance uses was the focus of the previous article "Aggressive Mind". The second tool is what I lovingly refer to as "Invisibility Cloak". Yup, it renders pain invisible. It's like that old story about the guy who goes to the doctor because his head hurts, and the doctor asks, "Could it be because of the knife in your head?" It's obvious to everyone but us, because invisibility cloak is activated, and so to us, it's invisible.
So, somewhere in your body, there is a dull ache, or throbbing pain, or dense energy, and you've been feeling it in the background for many, many years, maybe your whole life. But when you try to focus on what is bothering you, it suddenly disappears. It's just not there anymore. Nothing is there.
That's one way it shows up.
It can also manifest so that it appears to you that there is nothing going on, you're all good. But to your family and loved ones, there is obviously something going on. Maybe your actions or your movements seem off, but you don't notice anything. It's very irritating to have folks comment on something you don't notice yourself. Total drag.
This is different than denial. Denial is when you know something is up, it's not invisible. You know darn well something is up, but you are pretty attached to ignoring it.
Another version of this resistance is the shapeshifter invisibility cloak. You know there is some pain, it is clearly in your head, or hip, or throat, but when you spend a moment really taking a look, it's suddenly throbbing in another area. The shapeshifter version of invisibility is at work, distracting you away from the pain. Its task is to wear you down, make you feel overwhelmed or confused, and meet its goal of getting you away from the pain. It's the same devil, the same system of resistance, making the source of the problem invisible.
Another way it shows up is that you might notice your actions or movements are seemingly out of sync, or you have "weird" responses to things, but you don't know why. This happens a lot in cases of child abuse, sexual abuse, and traumatic stress. The survival system is amazing at fully blocking the source of the issue, yet you're very aware of your seemingly odd responses. You have a hunch, or you have some very challenging stuff going on, but you just can't quite get to the source of why your system is reacting as it is.
I'm so crazy sensitive that I usually catch a lot of this stuff, but folks argue me right out of it all the time. I get a lot of "you're just hearing things, there is nothing going on. There is no problem, it's just like that!" Man, if I had a dollar for how many times a day I go through this...
But the invisibility cloak is pretty convincing, and there is nothing we can do about it, except recognize and know about it. Because what it's hiding from us, only we can access. Only we can be available for this information, regardless of the invisibility, or our friends and family, or healers and psychics etc, pointing it out. It's truly an inside job, and can only be rendered visible from the inside.
And note: projections are not going to be helpful, so don't go there. In other words, it's not going to work if others start projecting their ideas of what's going on with you, or a healer tells you, or you start guessing. It's far more helpful if you learn how to listen.
So all we can do is notice if we feel any resistance. We just have to identify that energetic imprint. It's kinda like a "no...I don't really want to know," or a tension, or a feeling of effort, or a feeling like you're holding on to something, or running from something. It feels kinda like that. And then you can choose to honor that, and be honest about it. You can accept that is what is happening for you right now, and that you're okay with that.
Or, you can acknowledge that things feel a lot better when they are healed, and consider what it's costing you to continue colluding with this resistance. Then, make a decision to be unobstructed, and point your awareness straight at that source, which is always in the body, always a physical sensation. Let your awareness be unmovable until it begins to reveal itself...which it will. And you know, or sense, where that source is because part of you has been aware of it for a long time; perhaps not fully conscious of it, but aware of it on some level. This option takes patience, courage, and ripeness.
But that is what you get to do. And you will be surprised at how easy it becomes to access once you're on to the "invisibility cloak" defense mechanism. Because you can sense when pain is not resolved, and it's just hiding out.
From my point of view, about 70% of the hell you feel is resistance itself. Sometimes that is worth knowing.
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